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gretta at lothlorien said…
Mmmm. That's sad. But I now think grave stones are helpful in our grieving. I put flowers on Aunt Martha's grave last month, and found it strangely helpful, and of course have always done so with Stephen's. love
Thu Sept 25, 09:46:00 am AEST
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